If the past few weeks have taught me anything, it’s that change is a good thing. From labouring through my postgraduate degree to almost giving up and changing my career path altogether, eventually, change happens… and that’s a good thing.
Recently, a lot of change has happened in my life.
- I’ve settled into my degree (again), having changed research topic to something I’m genuinely excited about.
- I’ve ventured into freelance work.
- I applied to a 4-day film project and have been accepted onto it! It starts this weekend (I’ll be posting updates about the experience).
- And, finally, I’ve come to a decision about my future (that took some procrastination, let me tell you!).
Now, for many, these may seem like trivial achievements but, since Christmas, I’ve struggled a lot with believing in myself. I’ve battled with the demons in my mind telling me that I’m not cut out for a Film career, that I’m wasting my time and should probably just get a ‘real’ job.
I’ve been there, done that, and have only just started to move on from that mindset.
Finally, that lightbulb in my mind has switched on and I’m finally inspired to continue on with my studies… with a bit of film work on the side, too, of course.
I just want to thank everyone that has been there for me, talked me out of giving up and put up with my ramblings. Most of all, though, it’s helped me the most when people have belief in you when you don’t in yourself.
That includes you, readers! Writing blog posts has become a cathartic process; delving into research for a blog post lets my mind wander out of its darker places and onto something more constructive.
In time, change will come. It’s worth waiting for. It’s worth all of the job interviews, the opportunity-seeking and the long hours at jobs you don’t like. It’s worth the sleepless nights, the worrying and the feeling of being lost.
The older you get, the more you’ll realise that change is good.
Thanks for reading, it means a lot.